New Year... Improved Me!

1st of all let me say to you all HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! hope you're all havin a lot more fun then i am (@ work)... okay now bk to the subject at hand!

Everyone i know lately have been saying all these different ways of how they're gonna change this year n how they will not be the same so i geuess its my turn. I have decided to make a few changes in the way that i love from day to day. ever since i was a little baby, every new years eve my family would go to church n start our years off being focused on God. well needless to say, last year i jus didnt wanna... i was at a rough point in my life at that time n i just didnt wanna do anything... i didnt wanna go to church.. i didnt wanna party... i jus wanted to be alone n do nothing. I cried... I moped.... and i did nothing. so as the saying goes " however u start you year that is how u shall end it." and that is just what i did. This year alone i think ive cried more than i ever have in all of my life. mainly because of niggaz... well just one. I was a complete crybaby. n the worst part about it is that i hated to see myself cry... its like Ive always seen myself as a tough girl bt everytime i cried it made me feel lyk i was having some kind of estrogyn overload n that bugs me. so this Year I've proposed to Not cry this year. to keep my emotions built up until i find other ways to let them out. no tear shall drop from my eyes unless its like a major deal lyk a loss of a loved one (God forbid) n especially no tear shall be wiped off my face by the mere acts of a man. this i vow to God, myself, and all of you. I will not be weak! n I will keep you all posted on how this is going throughout the year... so ttfn! n Have A Wonderful New Year!